Today’s newsletter was about my shelves of diaries in the studio and my practice of keeping a stack of “on this day” diaries I can re-read when I have a spare minute: “Same but different.”
A peek into my diary
In today’s newsletter, I give readers a peek inside my summer diary:
Summer in Texas is often brutal — meteorologically, emotionally, and spiritually. One nice thing about keeping a diary is that I feel I have something to show for my days. I also have a record that I can re-read to remind me that “This, too, shall pass.”
You can read the rest here.
I started my new diary this morning — it’s always funny to compare the new one to the old one:
Every time I start a new one I think of the poet Karl Shapiro: “What will fatten you, skinny little book?”
Old complaints and grievances
“When does a diary pay off?” I asked earlier this week.
One of my favorite things about revisiting old notebooks is all the little complaints and grievances I find. The pettier the better, like this one, which I jotted down on our honeymoon trip to New York in 2007 that almost reads like a haiku:
MERCURY LOUNGE
great sound system
you could hear just
how bad the music was
Or this one, from February 29, 2004, written in Cambridge, England:
“I am tired of spelling ‘February.’ Ready for March.”
When does a diary pay off?
People occasionally ask me why I keep a diary. What it does for me. What, in icky business words, is the ROI, the Return on Investment.
Today’s newsletter is all about when a diary “pays off,” and what it’s like to have five or six years of daily diaries at your fingertips:
I keep a diary for many reasons, but the main one is: It helps me pay attention to my life. By sitting down and writing about my life, I pay attention to it, I honor it, and when I’ve written about it long enough, I have a record of my days, and I can then go back and pay attention to what I pay attention to, discover my own patterns, and know myself better. It helps me fall in love with my life.
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A journal is a magic space to hang out
A reader sent me this video of artist Debra Frasier talking about how she creates a picture book:
Towards the middle of the video, she talks about how critical her journal is to her process, how it’s “this active space where a kind of magic happens… it’s not a scrapbook, it’s not a diary, it’s this place.”
She learned to think about journaling this way from her mentor, the artist Paulus Berensohn, a dancer who turned to pottery. (He wrote a popular book called Finding One’s Way With Clay.)
There’s a documentary about Berensohn called To Spring From The Hand, and the website is full of all kinds of interesting stuff about his life and work.
In the mini documentary, Soul’s Kitchen, Berensohn talking about his journal and bookmaking workshops. He says:
The journal is not so much a way of diarizing one’s life, but a portable studio, a place where you can hang out, with your imagination, your intuition, your inspiration.
His emphasis on the journal as a place reminded me so much of what I’ve learned from Lynda Barry: that the page is a place where you go wandering around. (Because I don’t believe in coincidence: I wrote that post on this day 4 years ago.)
Debra Frasier makes an appearance in the documentary and she explains what Paulus taught her:
That you have this antenna that knows where you’re going before your body knows where it’s going. So if you have this journal space, and you allow yourself to trust whatever is drawing your attention, and put it into that journal, it gave me a way to magnetize the question, be alert to the answers, and have a place to store it.
Berensohn himself said making a journal was “like building a nest,” which reminded me of Thoreau’s idea about nest eggs.
Recently I saw a piece about how Americans don’t hang out anymore.
But not only do we not seem able to hang out with others, we can’t even hang out with ourselves.
Your journal is a place to do that.
(And I suspect that if you can hang out with yourself, you can get a little bit better at hanging out with others.)
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