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And then what?

Wednesday, December 7, 2022

Here is a lifted type collage, inspired by this Alan Jacobs post, a sermon I desperately needed (which he told me he wrote, like almost all sermons, for himself) about outsourcing research, letting AI do your writing, watching YouTube videos at 2x speed, etc.

My question about all this is: And then? You rush through the writing, the researching, the watching, the listening, you’re done with it, you get it behind you — and what is in front of you? Well, death, for one thing. For the main thing.

But in the more immediate future: you’re zipping through all these experiences in order to do what, exactly? Listen to another song at double-speed? Produce a bullet-point outline of another post that AI can finish for you?

The whole attitude seems to be: Let me get through this thing I don’t especially enjoy so I can do another thing just like it, which I won’t enjoy either….

I say: If you’re trying to get through your work as quickly as you can, then maybe you should see if you can find a different line of work.

Amen!

Whenever I see a video of some expert telling me I should outsource anything that can be done for less than my hourly rate, I think of the painter Grant Wood, who said, “All the good ideas I ever had came to me while I was milking a cow.”

I think of Mary Ruefle on wasting time.

I think of film editor Walter Murch, who wrote in his book, In The Blink of an Eye, “The real issue with speed is not just how fast can you go, but where are you going so fast? It doesn’t help to arrive quickly if you wind up in the wrong place.”

Festina Lente.

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Update (12/25/2022) – Alan had the collage blown up as a print. I really need to get the print shop up in 2023…

Drawing at the skate park

Monday, November 7, 2022

After our adventures at the Texas Book Festival, Jules and I walked west all the way across the Capitol grounds and down to the skate park by Lamar Blvd. I’m not sure Jules had seen anybody skateboard before. We watched the skaters and drew in our sketchbooks.

I’m not a skater myself, but I love to watch skaters. “I’m not familiar with the scene of skateboarding,” Werner Herzog said when he was shown a video of skateboarders. “At the same time, I had the feeling, yes, that’s kind of my people.”

One of my quarantine hobbies was watching skate videos of skaters in cities I wished I was in — I particularly love the Instagram of these dudes in San Francisco: @gx1000. (My friend James also sends me gnarly videos of hill bombing.)

Over time, I’ve been learning more about the sport, mostly by watching documentaries. I enjoyed Tony Hawk: Until The Wheels Fall Off. I also watched Bones Brigade: An Autobiography, which gives you the context of the scenius around Hawk. The skater who steals the show in both documentaries is Rodney Mullen, who has become a sought-after consultant and public speaker. (His TED talk is worth watching.)

I also love to listen to skaters talk about how they see the world. Skateboarding seems to reconfigure your molecules and changes the way you look and the kind of attention you pay to the world. (Exactly what we hope for when practicing any art.)

Here’s Ian MacKaye in his Library of Congress lecture talking about skateboarding:

Skateboarding is not a hobby. And it is not a sport. Skateboarding is a way of learning how to redefine the world around you. For most people, when they saw a swimming pool, they thought, ‘Let’s take a swim.’ But I thought, ‘Let’s ride it.’ When they saw the curb or a street, they would think about driving on it. I would think about the texture. I slowly developed the ability to look at the world through totally different means.

This is echoed by my friend, the photographer Clayton Cubitt:

Skateboarding irreparably changes the way you perceive the built physical world and structures of power that guard it…. It’s hard to ever have respect for authority again after you’ve bombed a rail and glided away from a security guard chasing and yelling at you.

“Skateboarding is neither sport nor art,” writes Bret Anthony Johnson. “It’s a path, a perspective, and a practice—a habit of being.”

Jules thought it was funny how many times the skaters fell down. He was kind of like, Who would choose to fall down over and over? (Bret Anthony Johnson, again: “Learning to skate is, in fact, tantamount to learning to fall.”)

I told him it was like kind of like drawing: You turn to a blank page and you take a ride on your pencil and then you turn the page and try again. (“Fall” and “fail” don’t have the same etymology, but they’re only one little dot apart.)

Not sure if any of that sank in, but we had a good time.

Labor and wait

Thursday, August 25, 2022

I copied this logo off a label from a can of tomatoes I saw in a scrapbook over at @paperofthepast on Instagram. (I swapped the shovel and sickle for a brush pen and scissors.)

Labor and wait, I thought, sounds like the writing process.

You write something, then you put it in the drawer and wait until tomorrow to pull it out and see if it’s any good.

You put together a book proposal, then you send it out and wait to see if anybody buys it.

You finish a draft of your manuscript, then you email it to your editor and wait to see what they think.

You publish a book, and you wait to see if anybody reads it.

(See also: The Abyss and The Gulp.)

After a little googling, I discovered that “Labor and Wait” is from the last line in Longfellow’s poem “A Psalm of Life”:

Let us, then, be up and doing,
With a heart for any fate;
Still achieving, still pursuing,
Learn to labor and to wait.

That poem made me think a little differently about the phrase.

You don’t cease labor and wait, you labor and wait, laboring while you’re waiting.

Always laboring, always working, always making, even when you’re waiting.

“The waiting is the hardest part,” another poet said.

“Let us, then, be up and doing,” says Longfellow, and the waiting will be less hard.

The “wheat sheaf” image is actually the trademark of a co-op society.

The wheatsheaf is a powerful Co-operative symbol, evoking messages of unity in strength as one stalk of wheat can be easily broken but a whole sheaf has great strength. The American spelling of ‘labor’ is not a typo – it was intended as a statement of support for the anti-slavery North in the US Civil War.

(Here it is on the side of a building.)

Ex-votos: “divine thanks for near misses”

Thursday, August 25, 2022

In Latin, the term “ex-voto”, is described as: a votive offering of thanks to a sacred entity for a miraculous act.

I first heard of ex-voto when researching the cartoonist Saul Steinberg’s bicycling habit. From the year 1992 in his chronology:

August, tells Aldo Buzzi that he fell off his bicycle but was not seriously hurt. “In my mind I see the disasters I avoided—teeth, bones, eyes—and I understand the concept of the Ex-Voto.” He makes an apotropaic drawing…

“Apotropaic” means “supposedly having the power to avert evil influences or bad luck.”

Here’s that drawing:

Note the brand names on all of his gear. In another letter to Aldo Buzzi, he wrote about his cycling commute:

Early in the morning, then, I’m on the bicycle to Amagansett, all of it uphill, and for a little bit along the ocean, etc. The return trip, downhill, much quicker. I wear a plastic helmet due to the danger from local yokels in their trucks, who hate cyclists and drive too fast and too close.

Here’s another ex-voto drawing of him on his bicycle from 1992:

I’m not sure when Steinberg first became inspired by ex-votos. There were votive paintings in his native Italy, but he also made several trips to Mexico, first in the late 40s with Hedda Sterne, who was down there hanging out with the great Miguel Covarrubias and others. He first started making his own around 1983.

Not too long after I saw Steinberg’s drawings, I was at the library and came across this book of contemporary Mexican votive paintings by Alfredo Vilchis Roque and his three songs, made from the 30s to the present day. The book is divided up into sections based on subject matter: “Parenthood,” “Relationships,” “Emigration,” “Urban Violence,” “Illness,” etc. My favorites were the paintings thanking saints for not getting caught cheating:

You can see why a cartoonist might be inspired by this form of pictures and words. Your typical ex-voto has a scene of a “near miss” or a miracle, with a saint or religious figure looking over the scene, and words underneath giving thanks. This caption reads:

I give thanks to Lord Jesus of Chalma that Joaquin was able to get away before my husband came in, avoiding a disaster. I offer Him this retablo, begging His forgiveness. I swear in remorse never to cheat [again], because my husband loves me and doesn’t deserve it. I will always be faithful to him till death do us part. I let myself get carried away by [Joaquín’s] youth and smooth talk, but this has made me appreciate my husband, as a man and a human being. Rosa H. J. This took place in Col. Condesa, Mexico D.F. February 14, 1990.

In the book Alfredo Vilchis Roque cites Frida Kahlo as one of his biggest influences, which makes sense because Kahlo and her husband Diego Rivera were avid collectors of ex-votos, decorating their house in Mexico City with hundreds of them. Here is an image I found of part of their collection:

You can really zoom in and get a look at some of these paintings in this photo.

It’s fun to trace the influence of ex-voto on Kahlo’s work in particular, and put some of her paintings next to ex-votos being made at the same time:

A 1934 ex-voto from Guadalajara, Mexico vs. Kahlo’s *A Few Small Nips*, 1945

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For more reading: “The Vivid Violence and Divine Healing of Ex-Voto Paintings”

Tecnicos y Rudos, wrestling and politics

Wednesday, August 17, 2022

“There are two camps of wrestlers in lucha libre: the técnicos, or experts who abide by the rules, and the rudos, or rough ones who break them.”

After I heard that photographer Lourdes Grobet died, I checked out a collection of her photos of Mexican wrestlers from the library. Lucha Libre: Masked Superstars of Mexican Wrestling is a wonderful book — a feast for the eyes, for sure, but it also has some great writing.

There’s an essay in the book by Superbarrio Gómez about when he made explicit the connection between politics and wrestling:

In the real world, you have the referee and the state, the rage you feel before underhanded politics and the demagogy that thrives without censure or scorn on television and in the press. In the lucha, the rudos do what they want. They don’t hide their behavior. A dirty wrestler isn’t sneaky about his wrongdoings. It’s all there for the public to see. In fact, he goes out of his way to offend the public, to give the finger to anyone who calls into question his corrupt ways. A rudo with a referee in his pocket is capable of anything, of using any available ruse to take down the scientifico, the clean fighter. This is how it is in the real world too.

Meanwhile, the good guys, the técnicos, can be a bit wide-eyed. They’ll extend their hand to their crooked opponent only to have the gesture of good faith paid back with some treacherous blow. The rudo will hold out his hand and, despite the crowd yelling “No! No!” the técnicos will accept it and get whacked. How many times have the people told their leaders “No!” only to be ignored and then suffer the consequences. Wrestling fans know perfectly well who the rudos are. When they’re spotted on the streets, they’ll yell out, “Enough! We’re sick of all your screwing around!”

Sound familiar?

artwork for Dan Sinker’s unproduced podcast by Aesthetic Apparatus

My hipper friends have told me over the years that if I wanted to understand politics, I needed to get into pro wrestling. (Heck, Dan Sinker put together a whole podcast about politics as wrestling, but couldn’t get it picked up before the 2020 election.)

The only other piece of writing I’ve read about wrestling is Roland Barthes’ essay, “The World of Wrestling,” which opens his famous book Mythologies, published in 1957.

“Wrestling is not a sport, it is a spectacle,” Barthes wrote.

“The public is completely uninterested in knowing whether the contest is rigged or not, and rightly so; it abandons itself to the primary virtue of the spectacle, which is to abolish all motives and all consequences: what matters is not what it thinks but what it sees.”

“Thus the function of the wrestler is not to win; it is to go exactly through the motions which are expected of him.”

As I understand it, in American pro wrestling, the terms “tecnico” and “rudo” are replaced by “face” and “heel,” respectively.

A “face” is the good guy, and the “heel” is his opposite.

There are lots of other terms to get acquainted to get acquainted with, like:

“kayfabe,” the “portrayal of staged events within the industry as ‘real’ or ‘true,’ specifically the portrayal of competition, rivalries, and relationships between participants as being genuine and not staged. The term kayfabe has evolved to also become a code word of sorts for maintaining this ‘reality’ within the direct or indirect presence of the general public”
“the heel—face turn,” in which an evil wrestler (a ‘heel’) sometimes has a change of heart and becomes good, thereby becoming a ‘babyface.’”
“promo,” an interview a wrestler gives before a match
“work,” anything scripted, or part of kayfabe
“shoot,” anything “real” or not scripted
“worked shoot,” work + shoot put together, “something that is definitely part of the act, but attempts to trick the viewer into thinking (if only for a second) that it’s real”
“heat,” a (usually) negative crowd reaction, or the animus between the wrestlers
“pop,” similar to heat, but positive

And so on. As Sean T. Collins points out, you can see how all of this is applicable to contemporary politics. (And art, music, etc.)

Even more becomes clear when you read about the history of Trump and the WWE. (Kurt Andersen: “WWE is, if not the key, a large key to the Donald Trump phenomenon we’re experiencing today.”)

Terry Crews as President Dwayne Camacho, *Idiocracy* (2006)

All of this tells me that Mike Judge’s Idiocracy will continue its prophecy and one day we will, indeed, have as president a former wrestler named Dwayne.